My Dismay

My friends are long gone
Having went their own way
Who would want me
In all of my dismay

I have ran them off
Once again alone
Wondering if
I will ever find home

I walk the earth
With satchel in hand
Taking the path
The has been left unmanned

I creep further through
My own personal hell
Knowing in my heart
Only sorrows dwells

Fearing the chance
Of just trying again
Feeling love is a battle
I will never win

How can I make another happy
While I am fighting back tears
How can I make someone stay
When all I cause is fear

How can I make
Someone learn to care
When in their heart
love is no longer there

Infernal Hell

My voice has been lost
Amongst the shadows that dwell
Leaving me stuck
In this infernal hell.

I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to not feel the pain
I can not lie.

It hurts too much
To see it crashing down
Watching as the ones I love
Start to drown

I watch as everything I love
Disappears from view
Realizing that now
There is nothing more to do

Realizing that change
should have happened long ago.
I did not change soon enough
So the tears can start to flow